Tuesday, May 31, 2011

God Gave Us Families To Help Us Become What He Wants Us To Be…Sheep.



In the parable of the sheep and goats the Savior explains who will be saved by describing a final judgement scene in which the righteous are praised for how they served the Lord. The righteous seem surprised and say, “When saw we thee a hungered?”

Jesus answered inasmuch as ye have done it unto the least of these you have done it unto me.”

When I read these scriptures today I thought of my dad coming to a final judgement and being surprised at the Lord telling him that he had served him. I imagine my dad saying, “When did I see you hungry, thristy, or naked? I don’t remember being that good.

Then I imagine the Lord saying, “Well, Rick. You made a lot of money in your life. Where is it?”

My dad would reply, “Oh, that. My kids ate it.”

The correct response would actually be, “My 10 kids ate it, wore it, and slept under it.”

I loved reading this prarble today and thinking of how I saw my dad live it in our family life.

“For I was an hungered and ye gave me meat.” - I remember him waking up every morning at 5:30 am to make a warm breakfast for his kids before early morning seminary. There was always a pitcher of orange juice and a pitcher of grape juice that I took advantage of. I have to admit that sometimes I passed on the breakfast when it was paprika (he mistook it for cinnamon) oatmeal or cooked sausage in the pancakes.

“I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink.” -Hunger and thirst can be spiritual as well as physical. I remember many nights after dinner when my belly was full, but I had a spiritual hunger that I turned to my Dad to fill. It usually was a question about the Gospel that I had. We did dishes together as a family every night after dinner. My dad was my captive listener and teacher. I knew that I wasn’t interrupting his work or any other thing because he was washing the dishes we me. That is when I asked him about Roe vs. Wade, capital punishment. ERA, family planning, and many more topics that I wanted to understand

“Naked and ye clothed me” - I remember once not having any cute shoes to wear to school. My dad was yelling at me to get into the car because we were going to be late for seminary. The only thing I had to wear were some bright green elf-looking shoes that a grandma had given me. I held on to them thinking that maybe their uniqueness could be cute with the right outfit, but on the morning that I was forced to wear them I knew that was a lie. I looked ridiculous and the feeling of dread I had made me cry. My dad was irritated that we were late and now irritated that I was crying. He asked me, “What is wrong?” I told him. He softened immediately and asked if he could take me on a date after school to buy some new shoes. I was really surprised at how tenderly he looked at me, that he was willing to take off work when he was so busy at that time in his life, and that he was going to buy me shoes when I knew we were so poor. I will always remember how he was so touched by my vain plight.

“I was a stranger and ye took me in.” -Sometimes, as children we went through such drastic changes it was like getting to know a stranger and being willing to take that new person into your life. I remember that he used to tease one of my free-spirited brothers for being careless or irresponsible. But, that toe-headed boy grew-up to be a free-spirited, yet over-achieving and very responsible man. Beginning with my brother’s missionary homecoming my Dad had to get to know a different person--a stranger. I frequently hear my dad compliment my brother saying, “He will always have work. He is very talented and responsible about seeking those things out.” I wasn’t at all surprised to hear that my dad and that brother have a business venture that they are working on together because I have seen my dad get to know again and accept that brother for who he really is.

“I was sick and ye visited me.”--My dad cared for us in many ways when we were sick. He always bought popsicles for us and if we were really bad off he would take us to the hospital He loves to recount how he would go to the emergency room with whichever of us was injured and the ER receptionist would ask if we had ever been there before. My dad wouldn’t divulge how often he frequented the ER, but would tell the receptionist to look our family up. He loved hearing them say, “Wow!” as they scrolled through the many ER visits that we had.

“I was in prison, and ye came unto me.” I have never been in prison, but I have felt trapped and lonely. It was after I had my first child and the hormonal adjustment left me feeling like I had a bad case of anxiety. He came to take care of me. By this time in my life his breakfast skills had increased greatly. The pancake mix in was the left over berry pie from last night’s take-out dinner. Since then it became sort of a tradition for him to visit his daughters after they had a baby to take care of them. That has meant dinners from restaurants, his homemade signature breakfasts, and lots of spoiling of the siblings of the newborn.

My Dad has gone from generous father to an absolutely indulgent grandpa. His generosity is epic with his grandchildren. The toys and the restaurants have been very fun, but what I treasure most is to see my son copy the way that he has been treated. Isaiah has been saving his money for Jacob to come out. I ask him what he wants to buy for Jacob He says, “I am just going to tell him, ‘do you want a toy? Pick one out! Do you want to go out to dinner? Where do you want to go? Want some candy? Which one do you want?’” Those exact phrases are things that my Dad has told him. How grateful I am for a dad that is a sheep!

http://lds.org/scriptures/nt/matt/25.31-46?lang=eng#30

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

"You are the trip I did not take; You are the pearls I cannot buy; You are my blue Italian lake; You are my piece of foreign sky." Anne Campbell



Miss R's cute words: "Tell me a dory (story) about Chrismas (Christopher) Robin."
"I wanna rubber (granola) bar."
"I wan some rola (homemade granola)."
"I miss my daddy! I need my daddy!"

Miss R's not so cute thing that she does: Makes messes. I have seen her get a contemplative, far-away look in her eye and smear oatmeal all accross her face. She is either possesed in those momonets or just fascinated with textures. She can't resist touching her food or drink and smearing it all over the table, herself, or the wall. When I was getting her out of our car the other day she was shaking the milk from her sippie all over her body. I think that everytime I have let her have a drink in the car she purposely spills it on herself. Why don't I learn?

Master I: He is thrilled with the prospect of his cousins coming to visit him this summer. Yesterday in the car he told me, "No one has ever had as much love as Jake and I do, right Mom?"

I had a hard day last Thursday. I was correcting my children a lot and felt very impatient. At the end of an exhausing day, after we put the kids to bed, I talked to Mark about it as we sat on the balcony off of our room. I felt discouraged mostly with my weakness because I felt like I couldn't handle the demands of motherhood without being impatient. Expressing this frusteration I cried to Mark, "I can't do it!"

Before Mark had a chance to respond I heard a voice coming from my bedroom say, "But Mom, you have been doing it for the past seven and a half years!" I didn't realize he was listening from my room until then. In his defense, I don't think he was intending to eavesdrop. We usually let him fall asleep in our bed because Miss R loves to play with him and make him laugh.

Prince W: His happiest time of day is in the morning. He coes and smiles when I make eye contact with him. If he is really happy he brings his feet up to his chest and pulls his head down to his shoulder at the same time.

Loves Hates
Being held all day Being put down
nursing When Mommy eats something with milk in it
sleeping by Mommy When Miss R pokes him
having eye contact with an admirer dirty diapers


He is much less fussy overall. He seems happy and interactive. But, he still loves to be held... in my arms while I work around the house, in the Bjorn while we are hiking, at my side while I sleeep, or on my lap between my out-stretched arms while I am typing at the computer (like right now).

So far the nickname for Prince W that has stuck is his name with an "s" at the end.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Wheat Waffles

My kids have been enjoying this recipe for waffles that I made. I make it with all wheat flour, though it tastes better with 1/2 wheat and 1/2 white.




Whole Wheat Waffles

2 cups wheat flour (I recommend 1 cup Hard White Wheat ground and 1 cup white flour)
1/2 tsp salt
2 tsp baking powder
1/4 cup sugar

Mix up these dry ingredients

Then add:

3 egg yolks
1/2 tsp vanilla
1/4 cup oil
1 1/2 cups milk

Blend.
Beat Egg Whites until frothy or stiff.
into batter.

Mandy's Wheat Potato Rolls



We have recently tried to make our potato rolls with wheat flour. We like it more than the white rolls.

1 ½ Cups of warm water
1 Tablespoon yeast

let mixture sit in Bosch while you work on the rest of the recipe

1 1/3 cup boiling water
2/3 cup Church's food storage mashed potatoes (potato pearls)
after this is well mixed add:

1/3 cup margarine
1/3 cup butter

after this is melted add:

2 eggs
2/3 cup honey (be generous here)
2 teaspoons sea salt

Combine potato mixture with yeast mixture in mixer the add:

6-7 cups of flour (use ½ wheat flour and ½ white)

Mix for 5 minutes (kneading hook)


Let rise until doubled in size. Punch down and roll out dough on a flat surface into a rectangle the size of a cookie sheet. Butter the dough and cut into 16 pieces.



Tie the pieces into knots and place on greased cookie sheet.




Let rolls rise for 30 minutes. Bake at 350 for apx. 20 minutes until golden brown. Dough can also be refrigerated for up to 7 days and used when desired.

A Day in the Life

What does a stay-at-home mom do?
Monday-menu planning and grocery shopping

Tuesday-Laundry and Ironing

Wednesday-Baking

Thursay-library and fun outing

Friday-Deep cleaning and date night

Saturday-a family play day!!!!


Sunday- a family pray day

Happy Easter


I love Christmas because it is a month of celebrating the birth of the Savior through sharing, present buying, lights, music, family get-togethers, family activities, etc. I wish that Easter felt like as big of a celebration. In an effort to try to celebrate easter for longer than a day we have started the tradition of celebrating Easter for a week by doing an advent calendar. We count down the days until Easter by reading the scriptures of what Jesus did on that day and try to have an activity that corresponds.


8 Saturday
John 12:1-3 The last sabbath. Mary annoints Jesus' feet
Activity: Give each other foot rubs and pedicures

7 Sunday
Matthew 21:1-11 Triumphal entry and visit to the temple
Activity: Go to temple square. Make a temple craft

6 Monday
Mark 11:15-19 Jesus cleanses the Temple
Activity: Cleanse our own temple by taking anything out of our house that shouldn't be there or by just making it more beautiful somehow.

5 Tuesday
Matt 25:31-46 Jesus taught people the Mount of olives
Activity: Make bunny breads and share them with a friend

4 Wednesday
Matthew 25:1-13 the scriptures don't say what he did that day. I assume he taught.
Activity: Paint a picture of the parable of the 10 virgins

3 Thursday
Matthew 36:17-29, 36-56 Passover Meal
Activity: Have a Passover meal with a meatloaf shaped like a lamb instead of lamb

2 Friday
Luke 23:44-46, 50-56 Jesus is crucified
Activity: Dye Easter Eggs (When I asked master I what we could do for our activity for this day he suggested that we could go give blood. I thought that was a very sweet suggestion, but he is too young so we dyed Easter Eggs instead.)

1 Saturday
Matt 27:57-66 Jesus body lay in the tomb, but his Spirit lived and taught in the Spirit World.
Activity: Easter Egg Hunt and Easter Baskets

Easter Sunday
Matt 28
Actvity: Easter Dinner and a family home evening program (Master I suggested that we share our testimonies of when we have felt the Holy Ghost. He told me he had one to share, but that he wouldn't share it until the program.





Sunday, May 15, 2011

Determined to Keep Hiking

We started hiking again in the mountains behind our house. It's more effort to get out of the door with three and it is definitely harder to get up the mountain because Rachel is determined to hike. However, we are undeterred.





Wheat for Man

Does anyone have any idea of what to do with 1000 lbs. of wheat? I bought a year supply when my husband began his residency because I was determined to follow living prophets. Now that we know we are moving accross the country in a year and we will we have to pay for what we move by the pound, you could say that we are sufficiently motivated to be eating a lot of wheat.
Whole Wheat Cinnamon Rolls




Yes, those are wheat cinnamon rolls in the background. We heard that there was a community garage sale going on this weekend. I thought it might be a good time to try to sell what we won't take when we move. Isaiah thought it might be a great time to make some money. He loves money. We had the idea of making wheat cinnamon rolls and selling them at the garage sale. Isaiah woke up at 5:00 am with me to make them. The idea was that he would get all the profits from the sale of the rolls and the garage sale if he did the work. He made close to $100. We asked him what he wants to do with it and he said he wants to save it until Jacob comes out this summer.

Wheat Bread that can be used for cinnamon rolls
4 cups of hot water
2 tablespoons of yeast
1 tablespoon sugar
--let mixture sit in mixer (Bosch) until it is bubbly (a couple of minutes). Then add the following:
2 eggs
3/4 cup powdered milk
2/3 cup honey
2/3 cup oil
6 cups wheat flour
6 cups of white flour
2 Tablespoons of salt

add enough flour until the dough is pulling away from the sides, but not so much that the dough isn't sticking to the bottom (it shouldn't be wiping the sides clean). Let the machine knead the bread for 5 minutes. Let bread rise for one hour. Punch down and form into 4 loaves. Let rise again for 40 minutes. Bake for 30 minutes at 350 or for 43 minutes at 310.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

William is Blessed




-William was given his name to remind him of his premortal and mortal character
-William-Courage and desire to do what is right in the face of persecution. A Disciple
-Peter-An unwavering testimony of Jesus after his conversion
-Halverson-remember the strength of your ancestors and look upon their weaknesses with mercy.
-Joy in making good decisions and in family
-Feel the love and support of family past and present

Here are some of my thoughts on what it will be like to raise William:

I have wondered what it will be like to raise William. Will it feel easy and natural? Or will I be humbled to my knees in repentence becasue I simply don't know what to do or I have lost my temper yet again? Whoever William Peter ends up being, I am willing to give him all that I am and I am willing to try to become much better to raise him to who God expects him to be. One impression that I have had is that it takes time for us to become what God intends for us to become. That is why I love the name Peter. Peter was a strong and powerful and important person before he ever came to Earth. On Earth he became an apostle of the Lord and President of the Church. After his life of Earth his mission continued in the Restoration. But, the New Testament offers a view of a real person that wasn't perfect. I love Peter. I hope that everytime that I use my son's name it will be a gentle reminder to me that conversion and becoming take time even when we are great or have great missions to perform.

In fact, that is the common thread I see in all of the Williams that our William is named after. They were all great men who were changed by conversion and after their conversion they did courageous things. William Rollo was baptized in Scotland. This took courage because he was a 40 year old father of a big family. His conversion meant coming to America, crossing the plains, and setting up a homestead in Southern Utah. William Hyde's history is Church history. Because of his faith and conversion he was able to faithfully live the stroy of our Church. William Brewster and William Bradford's faith led them to leave Europe in search of a world where they could worship their God and live after the dictates of their own conscience. William Wilberforce had a conversion that made him give his life to stopping the slave trade. William Tyndale gave his life to translating the Bible into English. This men did great things only after they had great faith and a great conversion. They were strong characters.

"Everybody needs beauty as well as bread, places to play in and pray in, where nature may heal and give strength to body and soul." John Muir




Our family loves to hike. Here are some of the reasons why:

1. Every age, from the young toddler to the older granparent, enjoys nature.

2. Conversations from the simple to the profound naturally happen as there is nothing to do but to walk and see the scenery.

3. There is a sense of accomplishment and conquering that bonds you to the group that you hike with.

4. Nature invites worship and pondering as we marvel at the Creator's masterpiece and our surroundings are quiet enough that we might hear His voice.

5. Dinner tastes so good after a hard day of hiking.




I will always cherish the memory of being with my Dad in Arches National Park when he came to visit us after William was born. I loved talking to him, listening to his wisdom, laughing at memories, and seeing all of those beautiful creations with him.

At Home With Three




Rachel and I the other day were reliving our happy moments of the day of all of the fun things that we got to do. She was so excited by the end that she exclamed, "So fun! It's a beautiful home!" The next morning I for breakfast I cut up berries and gave them cream to dip the berries in. This is Rachel's favorite. She exclamined again, "It's a beautiful home!"

On Sunday I enjoyed so much being with each of my three children. I feel like there are lots of children in my home. I think what I mostly feel like is that I feel complete. I was siting on the ground looking at each of them and I had the impression that this is my family. These are my children.

So far, William doesn't like sleeing in his bassinet or in the car seat at night. He will sleep in my arms while I am sitting in the recliner or he will sleep in my arms lying in bed beside me.

William is Born!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


it is early Wed. March 2nd. I leave in about 20 minutes to go to the hospital to be induced into labor for my third child. I feel peaceful and I think that is in large part due to the blessing that I received last night from Mark.

The blessing was such a comfort to me because it answered and put words to the very deepest feelings in my heart.

One blessing that I received was a blessing spiritualy, mentally, and physically. Mark said that with labor there was pain and fear and that I would be blessed mentally and physically to be able to do this.

The spiritual blessing that I received was that I would be able to hear the whiperings of the Holy Ghost and see a glimpse of who my boy was in the premortal world and have a vision of who he can become. I was blessed to be able to see the small and simple things that I do in my everyday life as contributing to that. I was blessed with increased faith.

My friend Michelle Brownelle came over a little before 6 am to watch the kids so that I could be induced. When I got to the hospital I was told that all of the beds were filled because there had been so many spontaneous labors in the night. The morning ended up being so much fun. I walked home with Mark and watched the sun rise. We sent Michelle home, put on a movie for the children, and walked around the house trying to get me into labor naturally. It felt like I was on a date with Mark. It was wonderful to be able to talk to eachother and to see the colors in the sky change as the sun came up. It felt full of peace, love of Mark, and excitement about the coming baby.


I was finally admitted to the hospital at 9 in the morning. The induction began at 10:00am. For the next two hours Mark and I watched movies, talked, read and walked around. The contractions were only uncomfortable, not unbearable. so it was very fun to be with Mark. He is my best friend.




They broke my water at 12:00 and then I was really uncomfortable during the contractions. I sat on the birthing ball and tried to get through it. I asked for the epidural, but little did I know I would be asking too late. I was told that the anesthesiologist just went in to a c-section with twins and would come as soon as he could. I have been asked why I waited so long. I guess I thought the labor would last longer and I didn't want to get it too soon (slowing down the labor). The epidural was hard to get in because I was at the end of labor and so the contractions came steadily and very strongly making it hard for me to sit still. By the time it was in I felt a desire to push. I told everyone in the room. They checked me and saw that it was time in fact to push. I just kept waiting for the epidural to take effect. I kept asking when that would happen. Finally one of the nurses broke the news, "Honey, sometimes when you get the epidrual so late it never has a full effect." I couldn't believe that was true. I just wasn't going to focus on pushing or anything until I felt the epidural kick in. But, they told me that William's heart rate was starting to drop and that I would need to push or they were going to have to help him out. So, I did it. It was actually less painful than just getting through a contraction. But, it was a terrible sensation to push him out. I felt like my body was going to tear in half.

When I finally pushed him all the way out William wailed and so did I. I wasn't crying for joy or for relief from the suffering, but more because I was so traumatized by how painful the labor was. I remember thinking, "I can't believe that just happened to me." And I couldn't help crying about it now that I didn't have to focus my energy on getting through the contractions. They immeadiately put him up on my chest, but I could hardly hold him. I was so exhausted-- physically and emotionally. Oddly, I can hardly remember the pain and I wish I could do it again.